My spiritual teacher told me to be open to love and I just wanted to cry. I’m so tired of trying to be open to love. I’m open to love and my mother hits me, I’m open to love and my partner cuts me with his words like a knife. I’m open to love and that stupid Mr. Flaky leaves me. But those are just excuses.
That’s the last you’ll hear me lamenting about how this one did this to me and that one did that to me, and you know why?
Because I’m a woman of means, options and beauty and excuses are not what this chick is about. Just like any successful person I owe up to my mistakes AND failures.
All those times I just mentioned I wasn’t really open to love, not completely. I dipped my foot in the pool of love like a reticent child and called it going all in.Women will say I trusted him but he still did this and that to me. No, you wanted to trust, but deep down inside you still doubted him. You can’t just trust on the surface you have to do it through your whole core and being.
When you let your heart open just a little bit and got shocked from it, thinking you were totally open you used that as an excuse to shut down even more. With a half open heart we are ripe to create dysfunctional relationships, dysfunctional love.
When someone opens their heart completely, the results are wondrous because you need trust to do that. What you think you attract, so if your heart’s barometer is on love and truth and wonderfulness that’s exactly what you’re going to get.